Monday, August 25, 2014

Silence | Original Poem by Shaye Patton

Silence



deafening
the sound of silence
the weight of no words
holding one under
the sea of sounds

racing
the thoughts in my head
tucked neatly away
years of hiding
resurface

the wall of protection
built brick by brick
with fake smiles
and the words,
"I am ok"

SILENCE

a never-ending cycle
never gone
always there
reminiscing

every piece of your life
 left behind

every decision 
yet to make

every moment you
not willing to share

silence 

the truth no one wants to hear






Sunday, August 24, 2014

A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

So I haven't posted much in over a week,and last week wasn't even a blog. So i had planned to write a really nice post today about what I've been up to,but I procrastinated. Therefore instead of words, I provide pictures to let you know how the past week went for me. ;)
Rockin the letterman!

New Pineapple phone case!

Saw a local production of 'A Very Potter Musical'

Went jogging

I am Vice President of my school's Tech Club and we had our first meeting of the new school year!

started watching Wilfred

Basic Computer Applications class

BORING

Post nap selfie with my puppy

attempted to clean my room

Saw TMNT with my besties!!!!

Empty Super Dome

Eye Selfie in Home Depot

Majestic flower photo



CHEERS!!!




Until Next time!!!!
-Stay Random

Friday, August 15, 2014

Infinite |Original Poem by Shaye Patton

Infinite



A thousand faces pass me everyday
They come in pairs
crowds
alone.

All being an infinite number of worlds away
no one being truly alike.

Yet, an overwhelming sense of emotion flows
through all veins
pulsing with anxiety

A sense of unknown
Unknown of the past
present
future.

All with an infinite amount of possibilities



Sunday, August 10, 2014

Advice from a Handsome College Guy | Starting Senior Year

This is the last night of my 2014 summer vacation.

 Although I am pretty bummed that I will no longer be able to sleep to twelve in the morning and wear pajamas all day, I am kinda looking forward to this school year.  SENIOR YEAR. Aren't we suppose to be excited? 

Well to be quite honest, before about 11:00 this morning I wasn't as excited as most of my fellow 2015 graduates.  

See this past summer this looming,dark,frightening thought has been in the back of my head. WHAT COMES AFTER HIGH-SCHOOL? Although I talked about similar subjects in a previous blog,and attempted to overcome it, I still had doubt about my confidence in the subject.

I feel like senior year it finally starts to sink in that life is about to really happen, and you are in full control. There are other variables at play but in the end every decision you make takes you on a new path in life. I mean, it's a lot to handle.

But, like I said in my previous blog, I don't have much time to waste on being scared. So I have made attempts at trying to do things that I feel set me in the right direction for what I want in life, like this blog and my YouTube channel.  Even after that, thinking about senior year and life after high school was like walking into the abyss of unknown.

Until today, at approximately 11:00 am.

My friend who graduated about two years ago  just recently was hired where I work for the summer until he goes back to university at the end of the month. Over the past week that I've had the pleasure of working with him, he has given me some of the best advice I have ever received. 

1. Drama ends in high school, so avoid it 
2. If you're looking for love, you're never going to find it
3. Go with the flow and have fun
4. If you want something, don't stop working toward it, NO MATTER WHAT!
5. Bruno Mars makes everything a bit better

Now, I know that this advice is cliche and you've probably heard it thousands of times from your parents,grandparents,aunts,uncles, and cheesy 80s movies, and I know that these are all reliable sources for great advice, but for some reason it was different.  This advice being told from a 19 year old guy I went to high school with, for some reason, just resonated with me.

My friend, let's call him 'A' for the purposes of this blog(not that even knows this exist) 

My friend ,well, is average. Let me explain.

I was fortunate enough to enroll late my sophomore year and be scheduled in Fine Arts Survey, the only class left as an elective. Now, I was excited because I like art, but at my school only seniors take that class as a last resort for an art credit. This meant I was the only sophomore in a class full of seniors. Initially I was terrified but to my surprise that's when I first met 'A'. He was one of the first people who talked to me in that class. He has been one of the friendliest people I know, a social butterfly.

Now we weren't besties or anything but he was my friend.

'A' wound up dating one of my friends at the time, worked with him in theater productions, became friends with his younger brother, and now, I work with him.

From this you can see that he's just an average guy anyone would've gone to school with, apart from the fact that he is extremely handsome as well as extremely nice to lame sophomores(me), but apart from that he's just average.

But I think that is what's different from his advice. 

He isn't a grandparent whose had a lifetime of experiences to give that advice or an 80s movie which was written by a bunch of middle aged people who has had those same experiences.  

'A' is just young.

This is I think why his advice gave me more hope. He didn't need to wait a lifetime to no longer fear what comes next.  Leaving high-school was enough. 

Leaving high-school isn't the end of hopes and dreams for the future, it's the beginning of working for those hopes and dreams.

So as of 11:00 am this morning I have decided that I am excited for Senior year!

As of Tuesday, August 12, 2014 at 7:22am I start working TOWARD what I want, NOT cowarding away.

And hopefully everything will work out. And maybe a year from now I will have discovered all of 'A's' advice and experiences for myself and encourage someone else to not fear the future but embrace it.

So with that I encourage you to take the advice given in this blog and maybe think about it every once in a while. Think about how letting go of drama could solve A LOT, think about how having fun in life is ah-mazing, think about your ambition,think about letting love find you not the other way around, and most of all, think about how much you LOVE Bruno Mars!

Well, until next time, STAY RANDOM!!!
                           -Shaye


PS
Sorry if I've been a bit repetitive, but this is the stuff on my mind, but I do have some other material planned, so stay tuned for some new topics. 

And if you follow me on YouTube I won't be uploading today because the footage was terrible so I have to re film this week.







Sunday, August 3, 2014

Thoughts On Relationships, and My Lack of One

Recently I was at work and I was chatting to a friend,who is a bit older that me, and we were on the very discussed topic of boys. I was explaining to her how I'd love to have a boyfriend this upcoming senior year, and how I am pretty rubbish when it comes to "flirting" and all other things that come with catching a special someone's eye.  After confessing this very typical teenage girl insecurity she replied with, " The reason you don't have one is because you want one." Now before I indulge on my intense confusion and frustration with this statement, let me give you a bit of background.

Hi. My name is Shaye, I am 18, and I have never had a boyfriend. I have never been on a date or had a date to a school dance. My first, and only kiss, took place when I was 17 and was a stage kiss for a production of Cinderella and my co-star who I had to kiss was 4 years younger than me. 

Now before you assume that I'm saying this out of pity for myself or embarrassment, think again.  Now although 12 year old Shaye always dreamed of having that wonderful High School Musical-like romance that included dance numbers, singing and Zac Efron, I honestly don't regret where I stand on the romance experience chart.(except the whole musical number,because that would've been AWESOME).

Now I know I at this point I probably sound like Olive Penderghast from Easy A, but quite frankly Burt Royal hit the nail on the head when he wrote that movie. I mean who doesn't love 80's movies, The Scarlet Letter and Lobster Todd; but I digress from my affection for the film.

Honestly, though I am not upset that I haven't had a boyfriend thus far in my life, it would be nice to have one now. 

I am a hopeless romantic, I love LOVE and seeing couples makes me so happy. But, occasionally, I do get pretty bummed about it. My younger brother has been dating one of my best friends for more than a year, 
my uncle is about to get married, and my parents got married at 17 and have been together for over 25 years. Yet, here I am 3 years older than my parents were when they first met.

So naturally I have to wonder why I haven't met someone yet. I mean I'm not exactly looking for THE ONE just yet, but it would be nice to meet someone who fancies me as much as I fancy them.

Now back to the opening paragraph of this post. 

See after coming home and being confused and frustrated by what my friend said, I think I kinda sorted it out.  I don't think she was trying to tell me to stop wanting a relationship, I mean most teenagers do, but I think she was trying to say not to worry about it. With multiple romantic comedies to back me up on this, I think romance is unpredictable. 

Love, whether it's puppy love, first love, love at first sight, or old love; all love is magical. Cliche, yes, but it's the truth. As hard as we try to calculate love and match people up through a computer, nothing is more mysterious and unpredictable than love. 

So I think what my friend was trying to tell me is that I can't anticipate a relationship. When the right guy comes along to sweep me off my feet or just simply asks me on a date, the time will be right. Like anything in life, you can't rush it. Because the beauty in life is its numerous amounts of beautiful surprises.

Therefore I will wait patiently. I will still admire handsome boys and chat with those who are nice to chat with, but I won't worry about what that little chat could turn into. 

Quite frankly, I do love surprises. 

With that I encourage you to love LOVE even if you haven't quite found it yet,but more importantly, to remember that love doesn't always come in the form of a relationship. So spread all love as much as possible, and maybe you'll get a little back.


Well until next time, STAY RANDOM!

                 -Shaye


I also am STILL trying to figure out how to put my links to my social media on my actual blog page, but I'm not very tech savey.  So until then....

Twitter: https://twitter.com/ShayePeezy
Instagram: http://instagram.com/randomshaye
Tumblr: http://randomshaye.tumblr.com/   AND   http://surfingsunsets.tumblr.com/
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/randomnessofshaye







Friday, August 1, 2014

My Premature Mid-Life Crisis

I AM OFFICIALLY 18!!!!!!

Now, this is the point in most teenagers' lives where they would pack their bags, say goodbye to their hometowns, and take the world by storm.

Me on the other hand, well I didn't have quite the same reaction.

Instead I'm kinda going through a premature mid-life crisis, if you will.

See I have currently lived my life in a very dream like state. Always saying things along the lines of: "someday i'm going to..." or  "when I'm older..." or  "I have a few more years until..."   Now although I will ALWAYS be a dreamer(It's just who I am), now that I am 18 I've realized that I am now "older".  Therefore those things I've dreamed of doing as a 15 or 16 year old was already supposed to have happened by now, at least I thought they were.  This lead me to my "premature mid-life crisis".

After my birthday, July 10, I realized that I am now(to society) a grown-up. Meaning that I need to start really thinking and working for what I want in life. Now normally I'm a pretty chill person who,honestly, never wants to grow up( in the creative sense),but now is the time to really pursue what I love.  Although this is exciting, it is also a bit frighting.

Like most teenagers I am notorious for procrastinating, and over the past few years there have been many things that I have aspired to do. Things such as upload more videos to my YouTube channel, start a blog(which I attempted 2years ago but gave up) and get really fit and hot! LOL!

Now in all honesty I have attempted these things in the past, but either gave up or just got lazy.  So I've decided, in honor of turning 18, I just have to do it. Let's face it, no matter what happens (good or bad) at least I can say I did it.  I don't want to look back 5 years from now and regret not doing something I wanted to do because I was nervous of others people's reactions or because I was lazy.

Therefore I am writing this blog in hopes to entertain, inspire, and most of all have fun! I have also started uploading to my YouTube channel and even downloaded a new fitness app on my phone. ;)

I'm going  to start blogging hopefully every Sunday and uploading new videos every week.  Hopefully if you've stumble across this post you'll check back in every week and hopefully find a bit of happiness in reading my little inner monologue.

Well until next time, Stay Random!!!

                             -Shaye ;)


I also am trying to figure out how to put my links to my social media on my actual blog page, but I'm not very tech savey.  So until then....

Twitter: https://twitter.com/ShayePeezy
Instagram: http://instagram.com/randomshaye
Tumblr: http://randomshaye.tumblr.com/   AND   http://surfingsunsets.tumblr.com/
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/randomnessofshaye